ok...this going to be one hella long story...so be ready guys..
time: sunday noon
skng nie ak tnggl dgn sorng kwn ak kat condo ak sbbnye housemate ak yg laen sume da balik umah sbb skng nie tgh study week utk 2 mnggu..kwn ak yg sorng nie ddk kat tawau sabah...ingt ak ckap nie TAWAU....
suddenly
dude:hilmy ak mahu pulang ke rumah
ak: (tgh bwat physics) wadda fish??
dude msuk bilik ak..
ak msuk bilik ak...
den dgr dye jerit...crying...
ak bermonolog ''this not going 2 b good''
ak: pehul weh
dude:ade orng sihirkan ayah ak
ak: f word
dude:(crying) ibu ak sembunyikn dr ak hilmy...ayah ak suda sebulan sakit...hari nie keadaan dia makin truk...muntah2 darah,xblh kunyah makanan..terbaring..
ak: (in shock)...then ko kene balik la
dude: tidak...ak tidak blh balik...ak kene trus belaja demi kelurga ak
ak: but this is ur dad we talking bout
dude : ak tau...tapi ak tiada duet...fnal suda semakin hampir...
ak: mak ko suro ko blk ke x?
dude: mak ak kate terpulang kpd ak
ak: ko kene balik jgak
dude: xblh
pastu ak berlaku la perbalahan ak dgn dye...ak suro dye balik...dye mati2 xnak...tetibe mak dye call balik..mase dye ckp dgn mak dye..ak sempat tnye
ak: mak ko suro blk x
dude:talking to his mom)...ya mak saya pulang saya pulang
.....
dude: hilmy ko kene tlong carikn ak ticket
ak: no hal la jgn riso...malaysia nie kecik je(remember this words irna) ..(hell la ak slalu ckap.ak blh sampai kat mane2 dlm malaysia nie dgn sendiri less than 24hours..but this is sumthing different)
dude: tapi ak xde duet
ak: (dgn muke confident) u let me worried bout d money...dlm hati ...sialan ak ade 150 utk sampai ujung bulan je..
afta dat ak g cc bajet nak book online....rupe2nye xleh nak book ticket less then 24 hours kat nternet...again F word....n mase tu plak la...h/p ak ilang...i mean kene CURI...skng nie ak gune no phone yg ak sendiri xtau ape no dye...agak mahul la..happy line...dah la phone tu xde...ak lak ilng sume contact ak...
den ak mntak no tuan umah dr kwn ak...ak call tuan rumah bajet nak mntak blk duet sewa utk bulan nie...den bulan depan byr dua kali ganda..tp tuan umah x kasi...dye da gune sume duet tu...boros gile dye nie...
den
ak call si pencuri telephone ak...
ak:hye
pencuri:hye
ak:blh x tlong 4wardkan no accnt bank ak...ad dlm phone book..
pencuri: ok
ak taw korng sume tgh penin...hahhaha...cite psal phone ak ilng tu nnt ak cite
den akckp kat kwn ak xleh book on9..kene g bayan lepas jgk...ok ambik kete n drove off...ak dgn muke confident nye...pdahal ak mmg xde langsung duet nie...kwn ak nie pon ade dlm 200 je mak dye baru msukan...
den ak anta msg kat sume bro2 ak
''salam_________...ak kene gune duet skng..kwn ak ayah dye tgh nazak...dye kene balik sabah skrng...tgh ondaway g airport...korng plz la masukan duet dlm acc _____________ skrng gak..plz...""
ak anta kat 5 orng -melaka(plng useless),negri sembilan,rawang,subang,ipoh
trus msg msuk
bro melake:gimme 30mins(kali nie dye plng usefull)
bro subang :ok
bro rawang :esok blh la
sampai2 je airport...ade dua bro anta msg :ak da da msukn 100,ak da msukn 80..perggghhh...lega syial...petak gak arr paler ak cari duet nie...sowry arr korng ak pinjamm dulu...sampai airport g counter...total ticket tawau rm486...ak n dye gabung duet ade dlm rm340 je...then ak teringt ak ade 150 dlm accnt ak...
ak:tggu jap..few mins afta dat...nah...
ckupon rm490...alhamdulillah....
haha ak officially broke skrng...ade 20ringgit je nak idop sampai ujung bulan...nie g cc...now im 2ringgit poorer...
afta blk dr airport...ktorng pon dudak kat ruang tamu....borak panjang gile...bapak arr..ak baru prasaan...slame nie ak jarang gile borak dgn dye...n salme ak n dye 2 orng kat umah pon...ak ddk bilik bwat keje...dye ddk depan bwat keje...mmg xckp pon...den dye start cite psal ayah dye,family dye...rupe2nye...dyeorng nie mmg susah gile...ayah dye soul bread winner..mak dye xkeje....adek badek ade 8 orng...dye no 2...abng dye 2buln lg hbis diploma...dye cite arr kat ak kat umah ayah dye la yg ajar dyeorng sume agama..ayah dye kais pagi makan pgi kais petang makan petang...ayah dye ajar disiplin psal idop...dye kate dlu dye sume usaha sendiri..ayah dye x mampu nak anta balaja tusyen ke ape..blk umah mlm2 ayah dye ajar maths,english agama sume...kire cam...family dye mmg mengharapkn kat ayah dye nie...
den...abng dye call...dye msuk bilik
again ak dgr dye meraung2...
dude: ayah ak sedang nazak
n i was speechless...dye nagis2...ak g kat dye...put my arm around him,try 2chill him down..
dye ckp endlessly psal ayah dye...
n at one time dye kate kat ak dye xnak ambik final xm...sbbb nnt xde sape nak jage family dye...dye kate dye xnak sambung blaja...
ak: zul...ko gile ke ape...cube pkir rational skit...ko taw x skng nie tuhan da kasi ko jalan yg btol...ko mne blh berenti yada2...korng pon taw kan ape ak ckp...mls nak type...
tp dye still keras hati xnak ambik final...n i was like...cube pkir ckit...nnt kene byar yuran blk...ko kne repeat satu sem...ko dah la pandai dekan....carry mark pon tggi x cam ak...xkan la xnak ambik final...ko blk la sabah dlu...settle kan sume bende pastu ko dtg sini blk...ambik final...skejap je...10hari je kot...kan x bazir
dude:xblh hilmy...ak terpkse melakukanye( note that hes a sabahan,dats y bahese baku sikit,)nnt tiade sape mahu jage mak dan adek2 ak...
ak xleh nak ckpa pe lg la...ak jz ckp kat dye eok kite g jumpe hep dlu...bincang kay...
borak2....den dye gak ade kasi nasehat kat ak
dude: hilmy, ak dgn bdak2 umah yg laen slalu tgk ko moody..knape?
ak try elak soklan tu
dude: akrase ko nie pandai,(yeah rite) tapi ko cam xleh kawal diri gado dgn pmpn tu kan
ak:camner ko taw...ak xpnh nak bgtau sape2
dude: ak pnah dgr ko ckp phone
ak: tukar sal bnde laen blh x??
then ak pon pg call phone ak meluahkn isi hati kat pencuri telephone tu...(korng still penin kan)
pastu ak g bwat keje..tetibe kwn ak kate nak tdo bilik ak..ak pon ok je...mase tu da pkol 12 lebih tp ak tgk dye x blh tdo...ak bwt je keje...pastu ak rase kesian kat dye nie..pkol 12.55am...ak pon tutup lampu n pintu nak kasi dye selesa sikit..(dlm ati ak kate la xpe esok ak bgn awal sikit blaja)
n esoknye kwn ak mmg tidor lame gile...dye jarang tdo lama...n dye nie ak kagum gile 24jam blaja je....buku refrence sampai 5 6 bijik..satu buku cam12cm...gile arr dye nie..ak lak bwat tutorial je pon xhbs...hahaha...dye nie rajin cam smap dak clas 503...dak laki tau la bnde nie
pg tu dye bgn dlm pkol lapan lebih...ak tgh bwt keje...n ak nak hbskn chapter nie cikit,,,dye lak n g campus kul 9...na k cam terlambat sikit mandi...ak hbs mandi tgk dye tercegat depan pitu bilik ak...ak pon tutup je la sbb nak pkai baju sume...siap je ak bukak blk pintu...tgk dye stilll tercegat kat situ
dude: hilmy, ayah ak suda MINGGAL...
ak,xtaw nak bwat ape lg....siyesli...ak just terduduk kat situ...n dye start menagis...ak g kat dye try nak calmkn dye....afta awhile dye blh terima jugak la knyataann...ak pon g campus nak settlekan document dye sume...pastu bwk dye g jumpe hep,n coordinator..da settle sume agak panjng gak la flow dye...
then ak plak dapat taw yg ak punye cocuricular ak xde dlm senarai subject ak...ade msalah ape ntah...n ak kene repeat sem depan...tp ak persetankan je mase orng hea tu ckp kat ak...ak xleh nak pikir...n ak just senyum je kat akak yg bgtau ak tu walaupon dye tgh bebel2 jadahbnde ntah...
so tadi ak baru anat dye g bayan lepas...nie pon ak baru blk..huhu sorng2 kat umah...izey jom arr teman..haha...adoi tggl bape kupang je nak idop sebulan...less dan 20 ringgit....makn nasi telur je la ak pas nie...adoi...xpe member pnye psal...
al fateha
den pas ktorng blk dr campus smlm...dye meraung2 lg sbb dye kate...xdapat nak tgk ayah dye dikebumikan...same cam ape yg ayah dye lalui dlu mase nnk dye mnggal...ayah dye x sempat sampai..n dye mmg dah down gile....salahkan nie tu...n msalahkan diri dye...dye kate last skali dgr suara ayah dye...mase mlm anugrah dekan bulan lepas...ayah dye ckap tahniah n ayah dye kate nak tdo sbb penant...xtaw plak dat he was going to sleep forever...
afta ak da coolkan dye baik..dye ckp nak msuk tumpang tdo kat bilik ak lg...
ak sorng...mase tu...n i started crying bcoz i was telling him lies...lies...ak ckp ko jgn patah semnagt nak blaja..padahal ak nhie yg xde semngt nak blaja....dye ckp kat ak dye bersyukur gile dapat masuk UITM...ak plak x pnah bersyukur langsung..n ade satu time ak ckpa kat dye kite kene bersyukur dgn ape yg kite ade...pdahal ak sendiri xtaw meaning bersyukur tu ape....n dye ckap psal ayah dye sume...dye bwat ak jelez, i was never been treated like dat,dont get me wrong i love my dad ok...n ape yg dye citekn kat ak mlm seblom tu...sume nye makan dalam,ak nie asik malas je..sik merengek nie xde ape xde tu xde...xpnh pon bersyukur..damn...damn ak da lame xngis...arghhh skng korng da tau..shitty la
n dye ade ckp jgk "kite xkan menghargai sesuatu sampai kite hilang bende tu"
yes ape yg dye ckp tu btol...ak mmg hilang sesuatu salme nie,sbb tu ak jd camnie...
n skrng baru ak sedar,knape mak ak nak sgt ak jd mcm abng sedare ak,abng sedare ak tu bnyak ilmu agama...sbb bile bnde camnie jd...nnt ak taw ak nak bwat ape...sowry la mak ayah...i dint grow up according to plan...
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...ak nak bernti mencarut pasnie...damn...
n pas ak ngis tu...ak call si pencuri tu,hoi pencuri thnx 4 being there when i need u...
tp dah la ak baru download lagu..cis kene curi plak phone tu...haha...adoi..tu la modem nternet ak,radio ak,alarm ak,calender ak,mp3 ak....tp nak melepas rindu ak...skng nie ko lak yg pegang...xpe...at least ak taw it is in a safe hand...jage baek2,jgn off
hilmy