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for the last 3 days, 3 people i knew passed away. and i buried one of them.
i think that is the way Allah remains me that we have expiry date.

i hardly known the man i buried, but he was in coma for 2 weeks before the end of the line. it was raining heavily during the funeral, and i have to step on his coffin to compress the soil. cant stop thinking of the thought of what he feels like when a man full with sins like me was above him in that state. i felt sorry for him and i too...terrified to even try, trying imagining it.

so now, time to review back our purpose in life, start making our short term and long term goal to jannah.
frankly, one of my goal was to live everyday as it is your last without the fear of dying as you consistently seeking Allah's grace. at this rate, i'm no where near to even trying.

اِنَّ صَلاَتِي وَنُسُكِي وَمَحْيَايَ وَمَمَاتِي ِﷲِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِينَ

‘My Prayer and my sacrifice and my life and my death are all for Allah, the Lord of the worlds.

PRAYER . SACRIFICE . LIFE . DEATH

on our lips 5 times a day but failed to penetrate our heart.