deleted post.: usrah

Assalammualaikum w.b.t...

ni aku nk tlis smula pasal post yg ak delete dlu...
pasal usrah.

point aku ckp aritu ialah aku pelik nape org yg slalu g usrah ni la yg slalu wat msalah.

BUKAN semua.sila bce elok2,bkn sume yg mcm tu.tp keBANYAKan n kt tmpat aku.

sbg contoh,kt tmpat aku ni,kitorg mostly kne wat pape dlm grup.n if ad org yg wat tak dtg,tak antar homewrk sbgnya,satu grup kne marah.

n grup aku slalu kne mrh psal dorg2 yg g usrah ni la.

situasi pertama :

a : korg,esok kne antar homework yg mrs ... kasi eh.... lgipun dh 3 ari die kasi kje tu.knfirm die mrh klu kite x antar on time.

b, c dan d  (3 org dak yg g usrah ) : ala..rsenye xsmpat nk siapkan la.sbb mlm ni ad usrah.pastu esok pg ad jnji nga  sister2 lain nk kmpul rmi2.so..kitorg xdpt antar hw tu.bleh x kite antar lusa??

a : erkk......grrr....

situasi kedua : 

mr p : i want all of u to come on saturday n stay here until 5...ALL of u...if anybody is absent,then after this all of u have to come every saturday n sunday for 2 months straight.

b,c dan d : (ckp kt grup kitorg) korg..kitorg ad usrah sabtu ni.so..kitorg xdtg eh sabtu ni..

a : tp kn die ckp kne sume dtg.cmne?ala.....skali ni je.plis la dtg.pasni kn bleh g usrah lg.plis..

(ari sabtu b,c dan d msej n ckap xdtg.sori sgt2 ............THEN,kitorg pun sume kne dtg stiap sabtu n ahad slame 2 bulan disebabkan dorg)

klu aku nk citerkan sume situasi..bnyak sgt sbnrnye/n mmbuatkan aku rse ''ape tah dorg ni wat time usrah.asyik usrah bagai.tp prngai tah pape tah.''

mcm tu la...then aku pnh skali kne tgur nga satu sister ni..

aku : assalammualaikum kak.akak 4th year ke?

akak 5th year : 4th year?akak ni nmpak muda ke?

aku : oh 5th year.sori2.sy xknal snior sgt.

akak tu smbil lewa berkata : nmpak sgt la adik ni jrg g surau n usrah...akak slalu dduk bce Al Quran kt surau.

aku : erk.....(dlm hati : hm,ni ke sister yg korg nk jmpe sgt n digembar-gemburkan ni?prngai tah pape siap perli2 org xg surau lak sbb xknal die)


n aku tringin gak nk join usrah sme2 n blaja bnde bru.tp,msalahnya org yg wat usrah ni prngai tah pape.n aku tau prngai die cmne..susah sgguh ak nk ikut ap yg dorg katekan klu dorg pun xpraktikkan bnde yg dorg ckap tu.

tu je.n aku xkcp semua org yg g usrah prngai cmni..ni ak describe dak2 kt tmpat aku sbb dorg taksub sgguh nga usrah ni smpai kdg2 prbuatan dorg wat org rse 'panas' je.

klu ad sape2 nk bg cdgn or pndangan lain,ak ok je.dun wori..

n korg..pham elok2 eh..aku xsalahkan konsep usrah tu.
aku tau usrah bgus..cume pelik knape org yg praktikkan nye xbgus.

p/s : aku delete post ak dlu sbb pas aku post je,rmai lak blogger lain g ckap ''mne ad,kwn2 sy g usrah ok je..awk yg xsuke usrah kot.''    aku cube brfikir positif..barangkali die agk buta huruf kerana aku dh ckp dh ni ak describe kt tmpat aku..bkn satu dunia. n biasa la...org kite mudah melatah tak tentu hala. =___=''

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for the last 3 days, 3 people i knew passed away. and i buried one of them.
i think that is the way Allah remains me that we have expiry date.

i hardly known the man i buried, but he was in coma for 2 weeks before the end of the line. it was raining heavily during the funeral, and i have to step on his coffin to compress the soil. cant stop thinking of the thought of what he feels like when a man full with sins like me was above him in that state. i felt sorry for him and i too...terrified to even try, trying imagining it.

so now, time to review back our purpose in life, start making our short term and long term goal to jannah.
frankly, one of my goal was to live everyday as it is your last without the fear of dying as you consistently seeking Allah's grace. at this rate, i'm no where near to even trying.

اِنَّ صَلاَتِي وَنُسُكِي وَمَحْيَايَ وَمَمَاتِي ِﷲِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِينَ

‘My Prayer and my sacrifice and my life and my death are all for Allah, the Lord of the worlds.

PRAYER . SACRIFICE . LIFE . DEATH

on our lips 5 times a day but failed to penetrate our heart.

keeping it alive.

owh da berjaya login..
just to keep this blog aliveee.

after 10 months of working, and a year of break. (work + break = 2012),
i am back to schoooool. ie, uitm shah alam. untuk melanaskan tugas aq sebagai filial daughter la.
tugas sebagai student tu kureng sikit. plus, keje da stat boriiing.
asek carik salah org....bertekak ngn org...kire duet org...

i decided, thats it. to shah alam off i go..
sempatla jugak aq berpeleseran ngn shin, aina, edot (bdk klas 12, if u r wondering)
final year if Allah permits. its going to be tough, i know.

so, everyone, life is tough. its tougher afterwards.
but have strength, have faith and etc.

selamat bercuti utk sume.
for those yg at the other part of the globe, have a nice winter break.
its summer at aussie rite? have a nice summer break.
for those yg klas bru stat seperti aq, have a nice ...................life.

:::ezza:::

p/s : perkataan yg di italic kan adalah perkataan yg aq x berapa sure penggunaan aq btul ke x.